June 22nd, 2009; its not all about him.

im sorry.
crying is just water coming down your face, but with emotions running inside. i dont like how i am constantly crying because of him. i cant stop and today has just been a ver emotional day for me.. because of him. I bet he laughs at me, and tells all his friends how pathetic i am. or maybe he doesnt even know how im feeling. but whatever your not here to hear about me being pathetic and stupid. Well today, i woke up to an email from Mike P. my astronomy teacher, hollaa! well yeah it brightened up my day. lol Well after that i went back to bed for an hour or two more. My nephew woke my ass up, so i went down the stairs. whatever, cool. you dont care about all that lol. Today it rained all day, i was driving around and i realized that i hate driving in the rain. its stupid and slippery. god hate it! My mother yelled at me because i cut some guy off today and she said that im not a pro to be doing that haha. Then i came home and yeah, i decided why not see movies online.. so i saw the proposal.. OMG its so good! i got chills and then thats when i became a pathetic mess. i put down my computer and started staring at my ceiling.. Luckly i had Joel who was texting me at the time, distracting me! seriously, i thank him! (: but yeah i started thinking about him, and it kills me.. seriously it really does. My heart is so broken that it hurts so much. I dont know, im sorry for boring you today with my stupidness.

pathetic,
charchar